Thursday, September 15, 2011/ -7:01 PM
Prelims, mock exams, studies
Today was math paper 1..
Feel kinda happy but sad for the paper?
I mean like, I managed to do more then midyears, but it's still not enough.. I can't even do most of the questions, let alone talk about speed? It's like, I've always studied quite hard for math, I studied the most for it for midyears, and now Prelims, but I don't noe why but it still doesn't make sense.. Sigh..
Is God Trying to tell me that it doesn't matter how much I study?
Like just lean on His grace?
Maybe.. At least today He blessed me during the exam to do the questions.. Coulnt have done it without him!
Sigh.life now is pretty boring.
Every second not spent studying you feel guilty.
And while I was walking home today after cabbing I was thinking that..
Our education system does not promote freedom at all. Or maybe other country's system too
I mean, whatever I'm studying now, I won't even use it for the university, or even for life
IM JUST STUDYING, SO THAT I CAN SCORE WELL FOR ALEVELS FOR ENTRY INTO UNI.
How.dumb.is.that.
Oh yeah. And it doesn't promote freedom, because they are such limited subjects to be chosen from to study here, and that it's compulsory to take a certain number of subjects??? Why's this??? I really don't understand alevels. Pple study useless things for two years (hence wasting two years of their precious time) that they might not even use it in the future?????
And even though they Singapore education system is good, I'm quite sure it NEEDS A REVAMP
In the past, pple were made to memorize bug chunks of info and were able to score well as long as they had a big brain capacity or if they were hardworking enough to memorize like crazy.
But the thing is, we are still doing that now.
In this information age of ours, does it still make any sense for us to memorize so much info???
While I do agree that ts necessary to provide te fundamentals for our basic knowledge and there are some things we just have to remember,
We are still being made to memorize SO MUCH INFO. what's this?
Even google can do a better job!
So as Singapore progresses in this time of age, our education system needs change
There should be a lesser need to memorize stuff blindly but more critical thinking
And students shouldn't be judge based on one freaking major exam only (PSLE, OLEVEL, ALEVELS)
It's stupid.
And whatever they say about oh
'schs not only see academic but holistic develop only' is fake
Pls, in such a pragmatic society of ours, pple look at your qualifications first. So stop talking nonsense.
Sigh.
I propose (just thought of this. Will continue thinking of more brilliant ideas) that examination should be done regularly, not in one major exam
Students are thought to THINK.
Like posing a prob to tr students, and getting them to think of solutions,.
And yes I know this has been done IN PW ALREADY. but won't PW be more fun if you were given more time to
Think, if it was less structured, and that it's replaced from alevels?
And althought there has been some effort to try to let our creative juices flow, most of them are only deemed to be a side project only, and not much importance is given to it
It's like they are making it compulsory just for the sake of it??? And after you are done with it in j1 it's sayonara!
What's this?
You can't just create creative pple(entreprenuers) just like that singapore. It requires grooming and what's not. No amt of incentive will raise the no. Of entrepreneurs if you don't start young from teaching kids to take risk and be creative.
Nonetheless, though how senseless alevels might be, I'm still quite sure daddy god will bless me more than enough to let me go to a place where I would enjoy, where I would be challenged:)
Sunday, September 19, 2010/ -2:15 AM
Dear Daddy God...
hey
i havent been blogging
no diff anyways, since i guess no one reads it..
its 2.15am now and im suppose to be sleeping
but im not tired...
im just. not.
my mind tells me to study, but my heart is somewhere now...
i need God
i really need Him now..
is this stressful time
i really really need Him..
i hope He appears in my dreams tonight
and tells me that He loves me
and doesnt want to see me cry over exams
because I deserve so much more
because Jesus already died on the cross and paid EVERYTHING for me
and that now i can take anything i want from Daddy God
and all i need is just to ask
just ask..
Dear Daddy God
i want a fresh anointing from you
i put my trust in you for my exams
that although i havent studied as much as my frens
and im not as smart as my frens
i noe that i have You
and that as i study and take my exams You'll be by my side
teaching me, guiding me
i pray Lord
give me the strength to continue studying
the burning desire to study
remind me everyday that i have You
"im successful today because You're with me"
and no one can tell me otherwise.
teach me Lord, to stop comparing myself with others
remind me Lord.
that You made me special
that You have a special purpose for me in life
i give my whole life unto you today, tomorrow and for the rest of my life
because without You, i am nothing
Amen.
Friday, June 25, 2010/ -11:53 PM
desert song
i still remember that time during olevels and yee si was seating beside me
i was listening to hillsongs
and than she was telling me bout this song that she heard in church recently and that she loved it!
but she didnt noe what song it was
she only knew this phrase
"i will bring praise, i will bring praise"
after listening to MANY SONGS
we suddenly stumbled upon it!
in the end it became my fav song too!
and my fav verse was
"no weapon formed against me shall remain"
i meditated that phrase throughout my olevels
i had no panic attacks (like i always do before exams)
not once
Daddy God work in wondrous ways
hallelujah!
<3
best thing in my life was knowing You
and about camp...
i dont noe...
but the services bout sonship didnt really touch me...
and everytime Raymond asks us to share bout camp
i couldnt really talk much bout sonship
but i do have one thing to share
and that is that after camp
i have the burning desire to know more bout Him
AGAIN
i love this feeeeling
before camp when Raymond asked us to write our expectations
i didnt write bout it
but during camp i asked God to give me the burning desire to noe him again
i remember that time during the december holidays i had the burning desire to know bout Him
but than when sch reopened i was too caught up in things
and i really just, totally forgot bout him ah
than after camp
i really had a desire to know him again!!!
oh my....
i really received something from camp ah
and although it may not be big, but i still thank God for it! =)
AMEN
Thursday, June 24, 2010/ -8:51 PM
hi my name is...
hi i just realised that it must have been a really long time since i blogged cause i typed my login name 5 times till i finally got the correct one
im really angry at the new MSI dad bought, its so FREAKING SLOW
like 10 times slower than THIS, but still cant beat the desktop -_-
im really sad rite now, bout so many things
i feel like giving up, and just NOT STUDY
its so easy to give up, but so difficult to persevere (no wonder they call it persevere..)
i hate my life rite now
i feel like my burning my notes. than throw myself into the fire
i cant imagine i just typed all of that out
does that even sound like me!!?!?!?!?
what has JC done to me....
is life really just all bout grades?
no...
theres more to life
so what if you scored straight As for your entire life
if you didnt enjoy mugging than whats the point!!?!?!?!?
i cant wait to go to heaven...
exams should be banned.. (at least Alevels)
whats the use of studying something that i dont think i will ever use in my life!!?!!?!?
oh my gosh
this post sucks
i have 5 more min before....
before i have to start mugging again
i hate my life
goodbye emo self
Sunday, June 6, 2010/ -9:37 PM
im sorry
im the worse girlfriend you can every get....
Saturday, May 29, 2010/ -10:48 PM
sigh...
oh my gosh
i cant believe i just wasted another day doing nothing
(other than math)
kinds failure
and theres GP exam on Monday
and i have been failing GP
oh my gosh
life sucks
(deal with it?)
but how...
oh my gosh
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
Tuesday, May 4, 2010/ -9:56 PM
A day in MJC
im not feeling tired...
im not feeling tired even though i...
1) Ran 2.4km today (14:37!!!!!! BBBBBBBBBBBBBB) (not bad for a guitar girl!)
2) Went for captain's ball competition today (only J1 team! LOL. and we tied with Atlas for fourth! go Callisto!)
im not feeling tired even though i...
3) went for cheerleading after competition, and learned new dance moves
4) lugged my bag (with the netbook inside) , humongous file, shoebag (with lots of clothes) and my guitar home...............
im not feeling tired
but im also not feeling anything.....
